OMG, OMG, OMG I said that loud many times. I prayed and prayed and prayed that I should not lose my temper at myself and someone else. I am getting good at this controlling emotion thing.
Here is the update on the clarification I asked in about a page and half. “There are no ill feelings” done, donna done. First thing that came to my mind was “WTF”. I asked forgiveness to God for that thought. I watched NFL draft, then I watched Firefly, I went out to see if I can do anything with my backyard. It looked so much wild I said…”I don’t want to hurt you plants, … this weekend” and it was cold so I got my ass back into my home. Saturday evening I called my nephew’s fiancé. Nice girl to talk to she calls me “mama” which means Uncle. oO I am getting old boo boo boo hehehe. After the call I remembered how much my dad care about my nephew. He never allowed anyone to even raise their voice at my nephew and gave him everything he asked. One day I shouted at my nephew and got all pissed and went upstairs and my dad came to me and in a very low voice said this to me “Be kind to young ones and show respect to your elders” one of the best lessons I’ve learned. A lesson I recently remembered which started the controlling the emotion thing..
My Sundays are the same. I ended up saying “I love you” I don’t know who it was I said that.. well there is someone in the spiritual realm.. but in reality… probably left hand. Hehehe
Game of Thrones wooo.. If you haven’t read the book better don’t read it now to see how it ends. Just get HBO and watch the episodes. If you are an aspiring actor you should watch the performances of Peter Drinklage(Tyrion Lannister), Massi Williams(Arya Stark), Michelle Fairley(Catelyn Stark) and Kit Harrington(John Snow) there is a lot to learn from them. They literally live those characters than act them.
Borgias on Showtime.. this is another masterpiece in the making. Wow I loved this episode. I don’t need to tell you how Jeremy Irons acts. The best part of this episode was when the Duke of Milan comes in front of the pope with his brand new wife, the expression on the face of Jeremy Irons is hilarious as she is a whore the pope was doing some months back. Then the Duke goes for the battle with the blessings of the pope blowing cannons and Duke’s wife at the same time is blowing the pope. That is one hilarious show. Notable performances François Arnaud as Cesare Borgia and of course the beautiful Lotte Verbeek as Giulia Farnese and Holliday Grainger as Lucrezia Borgia.
Believe me the shows I told are not for children. The sexual content and violence in both these shows are extreme but needed. I will not suggest these shows in houses where there are kids. Even teenagers who are light minded should not watch these shows. They are that graphic.
Well to conclude, I don’t know where stability is going to come from. I maybe in one place for more than a year now. But I am not getting the stability I am looking for. After more than 18 years of trying. I am not tired and I will not stop trying. Someone should understand, there are no more time for games. Either you are with me or you are on your own, because as for me either you are the one or there is none.
Have a great week ahead everyone.