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Sweetness Of Hope.

Words out of mind came,
Like the mid-spring springs flowing,
As her smile melted frozen hearts,
Leaving eyes in happiness glowing.

In her presence silent none remained,
As her gladness she shared,
And inspired the desperate to be cheerful,
Sad to be glad, cheerful to be happy.

With her presence, unloved feel loved,
Those alone, her heart beat they heard,
And the care of a soul filled with life,
Oh’ care of a simple human all felt.

Lovely like a dove,
A heart filled with love,
Oh sure she is a blessing to all, from above.

Far across lands many minds in hopes awoke,
Far away she maybe but breathless I sat,
Took the quill I once in despair of romance down laid,
At her smiling image I once more looked
And verses in my thoughts filled with dreams I wrote,
About hopes of love and love in hopes,
As, such is the sweetness of hope, Hope spreads.

Here is the video of presentation of the poem. The explanation of why I wrote this poem is there too.

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The first version of the poem given to a girl does not have the last two lines of the poem. Removing the last lines will take a whole different meaning for the poem. So I needed to give her an explanation. If a poem needs an explanation then the poet failed. But it is okay to give what the circumstances are when the poet wrote the poem. 

  This poem was written looking at an online model. Other than the material beauty she is an amazing person. But she started to understand me all wrong at least that’s what I believe happened so I needed to do big, big explanations about my past to her to make her understand, romancing her is not the idea in me dealing with her.Communication is the idea. Communicating looking at a pretty girl inspires me and helps me to make a bubble around me. I am very comfortable in that bubble as I have control over what goes on in there. I make dreams and images which I later write as poems if it is worth writing. There are two occasions when I got emotionally attached to the person in the bubble. One I got off easily. Next one or the last one about whom the last two lines of this poem are written was fatal to the love of mine. The explanation I gave to the model ended with the last two lines of this poem in prose.

Prayer Through Zeroes And Ones.

Zeroes and ones Oh’ in many combinations they move,
Millions and millions at pace unimaginable,
Translated into languages humans known,
Painting faces in all colors and age,
Carrying said words and played music,
Zeroes and ones, wonders of a web weaved.

Upon the weaved web she danced,
Through it many eyes she mesmerized,
Her words flew to minds that burst into laughs,
Zeroes and ones Oh’ they carried her far, with care.

A poem by the hands of God written,
Her mind, a mind boggling metaphor,
Through her eyes one see a soul enchanted,
Zeroes and ones Oh by her smile brightened.

Hours at those brightened zeroes and ones watched,
Every bit of a man at a woman focused,
Oh’ in prayer not to fall in love a poet waited,
Zeroes and ones in the fun of her aloud they laughed.

The forced silence, the forgotten verses,
Deep rooted smiles awaken in all colors,
Trust each sought and to time and actions all left,
Still a twitch in heart made the poet pray more,
As his heart can never ever love,
Anyone else but his only darling to whom he belongs.

Here is the Video of the poem

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The past is past and collection of beautiful memories in archives. I am not making any promises. I am just becoming the true me.
 Welcome back everyone.
Lone!!

I don’t know when or if you ever read these posts.

It is not easy for me to go away and you know that. There is only one promise I will keep which is I will run if I ever see you in real. If you want me to keep any other promise tell me why should i keep those promises as you haven’t kept even one of your promises.

Why I write in protected posts? It was all for you Sam. Now it is only for you as I have none else to talk to other than you and the irony is you don’t talk to me at all. I am the LonelyPoet I am trained to live alone. But still there are times a thought comes to me, that things should have been different. In which way I don’t know. Now I say, if given a chance to go back and change something in my life. Yes I will go back to that day when I first stumbled upon your site from the blogring and pass your site like I passed 100s of other sites. Because the pain it all is giving me is really unbearable.

This poems is just a sour grape one…btw I love the lyrics of the song you wrote. Honestly not my favorite tune. But maybe I should get used to listen to your music and learn to dance to your tunes.

The Laughing World.

Pleasing smiles upon my face come,
When in thoughts of you I plunge,
My days and nights to everything else, unknown.

Sweetness tasted, sourness forgotten,
Gladness regained in dreams newly bloomed,
Love of two souls all around echoed.

Love a monster with pain filled,
Betrayed by time Oh’ our souls lived,
Another layer of life, away time torn.

Time can betray, life torn away,
Promises all became lies,
And your  lies made the me a better liar.

Better world, better sounds, souls searched,
The cry of her soul in her words heard,
For a closed door I looked back, a forgotten path back traced.
 
Wild woods grown deep, the forgotten path cannot be found,
Lost soul cried aloud, thunders of spring buried the cry,
Still heard, her crying soul, though her world all around laughed.

Years it may take for you to understand,
The meaning of meeting me in your life,
And who I am in truth none else but only you will understand.
I wish I were wrong, I wish I am wrong,
I wish you were wrong, I wish you are wrong,
No wrongs in anything or anyone I can find,
It’s just that, time betrayed you and me.

Silent through the night came,

Unreal in these days it all sounds,

Silent not is mind, silent never it will be,

But silent you choose to be.

I made all posts I wrote in this site not viewable to anyone. Except one. Initially I blocked that one from entering this site. Then after a long thought I realized. I did it all for that one person, now just because that person blocked me from entering her site, I should not do it to her. What really makes no sense to me and perplex me is she said “I have nothing against you” but still blocked me from entering her site as poetrybox. If she got nothing against me why would she block me? Sometime things don’t make much sense at all and all one feel is fantastic insanity.
Here is a post I wrote in LonelyPoet.Com

“At least for the last 4 years I betrayed the world, writing things I said are fiction as every word meant my feelings to only one person. In the end fiction remains there are no facts. Mirages have all faded away poetry has no value other than the value of the moving sand domes in a desert. I can go no further from here on. I tried to drag myself out of the quick sand. Poet drowned. The man got only the Loneliness. So here I lay down my pen. The age of the LonelyPoet is over. I cannot say I did not enjoyed it. The most enjoyable part of my life was the last 20 years. But the more I try to get out of the quick sand the more the man was getting hooked to the poet and I need to save the man. The pleasure was amazing the pain of parting undeniably unbearable.
Here I lay down my pen. All those who enjoyed my works I know I served you well. All those who complimented my unorthodox style of writing. I owe you more than life. Those who thought I am not worth reading at all gave me the best lessons. To all of you, May God Smile Upon You All Always.

The Signature Of A True Human Is The Smile He/She Brings On The Face Of Others.”

This PoetryBox Is Closed.

It will take a great effort to get this back open and there is only one person who can do it and that person is not me. She knows who she is.

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Here are some comments and parts of comments left by a darling girl in my site in the time that passed between us. Read this whole thing.

“My best wishes go out to you…in hopes that things in your life will improve with haste. No one deserves to be put in darkness like that…by anyone. I’m sorry if I’ve done that to you.”

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“As always, I’m extremely happy that everything worked out well once again. Glad I could be of help to you.”

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“You made a good choice…if she was trying to make you into someone you’re not, that’s generally a better sign than any that it wasn’t meant to be. If anything else, you have people who love you for who you are. ^_^ Never change.

Your poem is beautiful…as they all are. “

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“That has such deep meaning. It seems that you are not only explaining the budding of a spring rose, but almost of another human being. It’s captivating.

Regardless of what you say, I will think of you…I hope that this time works more than any.”

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“I wish that everything that ails you turns to light in place of darkness, and that you are able to find happiness at its finest on this holiday weekend. I don’t like to see people I care about unhappy, and you deserve to be happy.

 

May your week still be filled with as much happiness as possible.”

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“That was beautiful. The symbolism you use to portray the insanity of life is wonderful…I really enjoyed it.

It would seem that you yourself are going through insanity…you express your chaos well. I hope that your world stops spinning enough to allow your peace to settle.”

 

 

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“I must say, everyday that I come home from work, school, dance, etc, I always look forward to seeing your posts and comments…and I want to thank you. I am always honored to be your {darling},  and will always be as such.”

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“As always, I wish you the most amount of happiness possible…because you of all people deserve to be happy.

 

Believe me, I am MORE than honored to be your {darling}  I look forward to hearing from you every day.”

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“I greatly apologize for not as many comments as usual. Busy times lead to no computer…which always ends up making me feel extremely grouchy. However, time passes and there will be somethings that are never forgotten, despite the stress and the hurry.

You my friend, are never going to be forgotten.”

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I really don’t think I need to explain what made her say these things. The fact is she had forgotten me.  It is not my fault, if it is please tell me what I did wrong. For any wrong I did or not did I apologized many times. So she not only forgotten me, I am un-forgiven too. That gives me a feeling and do I really need to be specific if it is good or not?

The Video ends with a warning.. don’t worry it was a prank